blowback ¿Excessive? can’t b

middle-age American living in New Jersey near the Lincoln Tunnel «« Although it’s lopsided toward my dad’s side of my family I distributed Ryan’s fresh vid to twenty-two relatives. I am feeling now as though I know why I wrote, “Erika’s warning”. I am anxious like never before in my blogging. Ryan open-posted to youtube, and if it was possible his past practices would say a better choice would be an open (minus dad) post, but youtube is not like that. The comments from the first twelve I sent the vid to tells me there’s an appetite for news about Ryan. Once he said to me in anger, “I’m done with your side of the family”, which may or may not have been true at the moment, and may or may not be true now, but either way my side of the family is not done with him. Family is like dryer lint . . it hangs on. I sense he left management of all things my side of his family to his older brother, David, until David died, and his older sister, Erin, since. Anxiety tells me there’s a price to pay for snagging and sending his vid, and I’m not comfortable with it yet. If I pay any price it’s sure to be delay, and muted, because it’s delayed. I’ve got this joyous boyish smile on my face knowing what I’ve done was fun, but I also fear it’s not over. The blowback will have to be massive before it even begins to trigger regret. “Awesome” came in a reply email. “Awesome” yes; God this feels good. »» about me 302-990-2346 contact us


About Tom Doody

middle-age American living in New Jersey near the Lincoln Tunnel
This entry was posted in Uncategorized. Bookmark the permalink.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s