Erika’s warning

middle-age American living in New Jersey near the Lincoln Tunnel «« Erika’s name appears on a series of comments in this blog, and at one point she suggested, and I confirmed she’d like to know more about me taking the risk of relatively high personal-emotional disclosure by blogging the way I do. Moments ago I added the same thumbnail pic to six recent vids, and those six are the best example of the kind of disclosure Erika refers to, and those same vids realized for me the benefit of blogging. A mysterious action against me by my siblings exclude me from events that included all my siblings. This is my best summary of the relevant history. My one sibling who is the lead in my exclusion has a habit of glassing over and filtering unwanted incoming information. She has built a dynasty in Milwaukee with the most significant part of my family in one place. All orchestrated by Ellen. She wants the family together, and it is my theory that somehow she saw me as descent. My blogging allowed me to visit after a decade of being, “silenced” without anything to say. My six vids started with a negative emotional event initiated by my childhood amigo, John. With the vids I was freshly expressed like a cow visiting the milker with empty mams. I listened a lot, and expressed nothing about my decade exclusion. In addition to not talking about my exclusion I credit my blogging with me feeling there was nothing more to say on the subject. My six vids have already garnished noteworthy listening time. Imagining myself as a family member who witnessed me at the party . . . that person, he or she might remark about the crying middle-age man devastated about his bad news from his childhood amigo, John. He or she has reason to see contrast between sadness on my Martha90 vids, and the joy of me in person celebrating my mom’s bday. The world is filled with abundant reasons to express sadness, and my vids allowed me to express sadness in safety and privacy ¿Privacy? yes, ironically to the people who watched my sad vids, and pretend they didn’t or to the people like my sister Ellen who is unlikely to be penetrated in any way by the content my expression of sadness . . . my expression was private. My noteworthy clicks on my Martha90 vid series shows I’ve entertained my listeners while giving myself a leg up at the party. »» about me 302-990-2346 contact us

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About Tom Doody

middle-age American living in New Jersey near the Lincoln Tunnel
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4 Responses to Erika’s warning

  1. Erika M says:

    So glad the return of the prodigal son went over well! I believe it was a good call to leave the hurt of the past behind and go in with a positive attitude. I hope this will be the start of more normal or traditional family interactions for you. One question- were you able to reconnect with your son or daughter?

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