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middle-age American living in New Jersey near the Lincoln Tunnel «« Manish Patel, my brother, and Brian are three fathers who react to my daughter prohibiting me from contacting her as though it’s intolerable.  Manish Patel’s reaction to my news that my daughter is a college graduate.  “You should be at the party” he said.  “It was months ago I just learned by phone from my daughter today”.  Manish reacted to the sadness in a way my brother and Brian probably would have.  The good news of my daughter being a college graduate gets lost the sadness of a relationship that lacks a trace of apparent daddy love.  Though David and Brian are family and they are more important to me than the owner of my barrio liquor store seeing Manish experience trauma as he imagined my vacant relationship with my daughter was more impactful.  For a moment I felt bad for him.  If the course of his relationship with his daughter were to chart a course to resemble my relationship with my daughter, then I sense it would break the man.  If what is true for Manish were true for me then my daughter would have the power to break me.  I would not want her or anyone to have that power, and she has never behaved as though having the power to break me would be desirable.  Though keeping me in non-participant status in her life had the potential to hurt me I know in my heart she cares enough for me to know a negative event for me would never feel positive to her.  Our 00:02:10 call gave me a sound bite that will fuel my imagination for time to come.  “Can I talk to you?” I asked with hesitation knowing I have clear instructions not to contact her, “That depends on what you’re going to say” she replied.  At this moment I feel I am the dad to her I’ve always wanted to be. »» about me  201-490-9659  Mom angry  nearlincoln@hotmail.com  contact us